This time of year is always difficult for me. No matter how different I “feel” I get it when people say you just learn to cope differently or better as time goes on. I feel better as in some time has passed and I don’t cry everyday but my heart was truly wounded when War was taken away. I have my faith so I honestly and truly get some joy from knowing that he is in heaven with mom mom Sadie, His most favorite person to ever walk this earth. All of his favorite people are in heaven with him, why would I be sad about that or how could I be sad about that? Well…I am sad about it some though not nearly as much as I used to be. This world will always be the same, but it will always be different since he is not here. These are just thoughts but this is my new reality.